I have a confession. I am cheating on you. I hope you will forgive me. I truly believe what I am doing will make me a better and more consistent blogger.
Every morning even before my coffee I write three pages. This exercise is called Morning Papers. I am re-establishing the pattern from years ago, in preparation for doing another one of Julia Cameron’s books. The first one I did, easily 25 plus years ago, was the Artist Way. The one I am planning on starting is titled Finding Water. During this exploration I have come across two more books that I am working on The Accidental Genius by Mark Levy and Louder than Words: Harness the Power of Your Authentic Voice by Todd Henry. Both are demanding my attention at the moment.
Both these books have shaken me to the core, I am in transition.
I seem to be swimming in murky water, unknown territory! Every so often, these beautiful sparkly or sometimes crystal clear patches come floating by. I get all excited and head towards them but I can’t stay within them. And I find myself once again in the murky unknown. Only this time I have a gurgling or bubbly sensation deep inside that in some way gives colour to fog and add a sense of excitement and hope, for what is out there, or is it in here and gurgling up.
Other times, I feel I have easy access to thousands of ideas kind of like I am reading a book, where all new ideas are stored. It is exciting and yet overwhelming. I am now trying to keep list. Things are going by so quickly I seem to lose whole concepts as they pass through me.
Why am I telling you this, Good question? I just want you to know I am nearby, I am safe, I am searching, learning and changing. I treasure our time together and I am preparing to spend more time with you. Your attention, the fact you stop by and read this blog means a lot to me. You are a life raft.
I’d love to tell you I miss you but truth be told I am almost afraid to blog these days. I feel jagged and raw! I am afraid to get out of the water. If I get out and sit in boat, I may never get back in. I am out on a limb and as long as I keep looking at the view I am fine. It is when I look back at the tree or down at the ground things start to slide sideways. I want to write-through it…. but the consequences could be disastrous.
I am working on all kind of new ideas for the Fall term. Way too many! I hope I settle soon.
My summer is starting out with a trip up north to see my son. Dave and I are so very excited. Not only to see Aaron and Jess because it has been way too long but to see the north. I have only been up in the winter and experienced its silence in its colourless state, and Dave has never been. Also we haven’t had time off since the Japanese trip which was cut short. We do love to travel and we love to travel together. I am giddy with anticipation.
This morning I am teaching my linking leather class. I am so looking forward to it. It has two of my loves, leather and seedbeads. I am very excited about all the wet forming, I have been doing and exploring ways to share it in the fall. It is just I know there is so much more to explore. I sense something major just beyond my reach. I know it has to do with my belief in myself not my work. It is all so exciting.
Not only is my work changing… but my approach to my work is changing. I am changing I am becoming new!!